Reflection on the past year, a.k.a. "I am an idiot".

I am a bit overdue with this blog post, to be honest. It's almost four weeks into the term now. So let's get started.

If I can say something to describe my first year, I would say something like “unusual”. Secondary education is more or less monorail. A student must be a real slacker to drop out. Year after a year there is pretty much the same. Compared to that, universities are more interesting, but also more demanding. Primarily in terms of money, unfortunately, but it is certainly easier to drop out. Nevertheless, it is fun. Sometimes hectic, sometimes stressful, but fun nevertheless. Hell, I finally do what I want and not what I am forced to.
Not sure if I mentioned it, but I went to one of the best schools in my country and studied in a Physics and Mathematics class, which naturally attracts smart people (doesn't sound very modest, but I'm just stating a fact). People who are used to actually using their head for thinking and not as an extrusion of the body to put a hat on. This made me have an idealized view of humanity. Well, theoretically I knew that two thirds of the population are dumb, but oh boy I was underestimating. Never in my life I had met so many folks with no knowledge of basic geography and history, speaking no languages besides English, having little to no curiosity and being generally boring before I moved here. I try to think that any person I meet knows something I don't. It didn't work like this any more. 70% quickly turned into 90%. It would be a humongous confidence boost, if it wasn't so sad. A person without curiosity might as well be dead.
Most people on the course are different though. It's an interesting mix of different cultures, world view, interests. Yes, we are primarily focused on video games, but there are a lot of other topics we can talk about. And they taught me a valuable lesson – I suck at what I do. A lot. And sometimes I suck as a person as well.
Which this is a great thing, actually. Well, not the “suck as a person thing”. What I mean to say is that when one is submerged in an environment of people who try to excel in the same field as yourself, it is really easy to notice your mistakes and errors. And this gives an opportunity for improvement. Hey, I'm a lazy guy whose drawing and modelling skills are mediocre. But that's why I've spent so much money and time to get on this course – to improve. And eventually become better.

So, my ambitions for the second year are quite modest. Further improve my skills. Build my portfolio. Get an internship at Ubisoft because it will look impressive on my resume and I get to see part of India. Not drop out or do anything equally stupid.
Yeah, I'm really original.